Conflicting emotions

I have come to realise writing is a job and as with any job you need the occasional holiday or break or you start resenting the activity or possibly running the risk of burning yourself out. I have a meal at the Hand and Flowers to look forward to at the end of next month for Kate’s birthday which is seeing me through at the moment.

Originally posted 16.06.11

Sorry for the extended downtime, but I have been struggling with my writing recently. This is not a case of writer’s block, I have a couple ideas I would ideally like to explore in short story form, and there is always stuff to be done on my novel. The problem is I have not wanted to write.

And this is why I am conflicted because I do want to write, it is my goal to make a career out of it. At the moment though I can’t bear to face that blank page and start typing. I have even started to lie to myself, convincing my brain that reading comic books and watching films is research. That making up a new  character I’ll never use is useful in some way.

I am hoping that it is because I have just finished my first two portfolios for my MA and the effort that went into them has drained me somewhat. Just writing this is nice because it is the first non business related writing I have done since my last post.

I am going to try just writing anything, rather than working on a project. Just to get my fingers moving over the keys again and my brain happy with writing again.

Hopefully my next post won’t be so far away.

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